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 * I believed in love once**

I have always believed that love was the answer to everything. You know those songs you hear on the radio for example, I believe in a thing called love, All you need is love, or even Love will keep us together. Well as I grew older I began to believe the opposite. Love is a cruel and harsh emotion that can keep you up all night. I realized this a couple years ago when I fell head over heels for this guy. In my opinion he was unimaginably perfect. Then I figured out he went to the same hangouts I did and we grew closer with every conversation we had. One day I was spending the night at a friend’s house and I was on myspace trying to find out some new gossip. All of a sudden I clicked on this girls page and it turned out the guy that I was so in love with just recently became her new boyfriend. I never knew a heart could break as easily as mine did that night. After many hours of tears and girl talk I managed to over come the feelings. About 4 months of watching there love progress she finally dumped him. I was extremely happy, but him on the other hand still loved her with all he had. After their break up they still remained close friends almost as close as they were when they actually dated. He would go on trips with her and her family, she’d even come on church events with us. Those times were by far the worst for me, knowing that any minute my chances of having him would soon once again vanish. When he wasn’t around her he was my best friend then we she came around his complete focus would go to her. Almost like she had him under a spell. This has been going on for the past 2 years. They say that broken hearts can be mended in time, well that’s a lie it actually gets more complicated. Recently they have worked out there problems and are a happy couple. As I stand in the background waiting for him to noticed that he’s making a huge mistake once again. I’ll always be his friend and I’ll always love him more than I know I should but I’m tired of being in this love triangle so I hope she realizes that what she has is amazing and she better not let it go. So now my entire outlook on love have gone down hill and it changed me as a person. Hopefully one day I’ll find Mr. Right but who knows im still in high school so love can wait.